Bismillah

As Salaamu alaikum,

I recently travelled far from home to help my family welcome a new member. A baby girl whom I will call Dewdrop. I relaxed, cooked, loved, cleaned, and cared for people I love dearly. Then I went home and returned to real life.  

There have not been many times in my life where I have been removed from my environment then returned to it in such a way that I get to assess what impact that environment has on me. And I have to say it has been an eye opening moment. Because I have been blessed to realize that the problem is me. I have accustomed myself to feeling overwhelmed and now all I have to do is walk into the door to feel it.

When I returned home the house was clean and the children well looked after. And that said it all. I could no longer blame my difficulty in finding consistent time to spend with quran on my house or my loud kids. Our minds have to heal just as much as our bodies and hearts when we have gone through difficulty. 

It is not enough to endure but we must push past that level and begin to thrive once again. For me the ability to thrive consists of consistently memorizing and revising Quran. Everything that distracts from that is simply not worth my time and not worth having in my heart or my home.