Bismillah Assalaamu Alaikum,
Alhamdulillah. Allah has given us so much beauty in the world. He has made pathways for us to learn grow and change. If I let it, I know Quran will be the pathway for my life. But sometimes I find myself wondering if I will ever reach the summit of this mountain. I struggle with distraction as we all do. I hope and pray for discipline and structure but I often fall short… Blah blah blah…
It’s not about climbing the mountain. Memorizing Quran isn’t about reaching the summit of an incredible task. Memorizing Quran is about waking up everyday and gazing at the sheer beauty of everything Allah has put in the world. Just as I would gaze with awe at the beauty of this mountain in the photo. We can all gaze at the wonder of holding the last revelation from Allah in our hands. This is it! This is the blessing. Being able to read and to recite the unaltered word of Allah. I hear its beauty flow from my tongue and I wonder how I got to be so blessed. 🥲 I am in awe.
This is what I hold onto and remember when my children fall ill and I am prevented from spending time with Quran to care for them. This is how I comfort myself when I am forced to be away from my beloved Mushaf ( book containing Quran). To grow in love for Quran is to fall in love with Allah. It is what changes my task of becoming a preserver of Quran from heavy to lite. I don’t think of a mountain.
I see the beauty and majesty of the miracle before my eyes, and I lean a little closer. I lean in closer until one foot moves forward. Then the other moves forward. I walk towards the beauty I am gazing upon. Then I am still. And in my moments of stillness Allah’s words echo in the corners of my spirit. I heal in the stillnesses. And I expand in the movement. One step at a time.
Remember Allah in all that you do, Blackseed.