Bismillah,
Assalaamu alaikum,
I completed my revision this morning and subhaanAllah I really something very special. I have finished a quarter of the Quran. It feels so strange. It’s like I woke up in a different reality.
The past two weeks I’ve been focusing on doing Quran first. Before I eat before I feed my children before anything and anyone else, I begin Quran. I put away the excuses and I put away the fear. I simply shrugged it off my shoulders. I simply gave that time to Allah. And in return Allah has give me an opening. It isn’t enough to just want Quran. It is something that has to be earned. And for a really long time I was too self centered and depressed to think about that. For a long time there were too many other things occupying my time and my mental energy to give the Quran its rights.
in truth I was worried about everything but Quran. I was worried about my children. I was worried about master Yoda. I was worried about finances. I was worried to sickness. I was worried to pain. And then for a time last week Allah lifted the worry. All of it. I woke up and said to myself okay Quran first. I said Quran first and I know Allah will take care of the rest. And He did. The children fed themselves. Boiled eggs and toast with apples.
Sometimes I don’t know just how much ease I am missing in my life until I decide to simply believe in Allah a little bit more. Sometimes it’s enough not to be fancy. Sometimes I just need to ask Allah for help. And, for the moment, I’m okay with that.
pg 82 sura nisaa +Qamar-Naas= 7.59 juz AAALLLLLAAAAAAAHU
Akbar!